I know that I am not alone when I describe how excited I was to see that Boston 2014 Registration opens on September 9th. When I saw the email, I shouted out loud, "YES!" - and immediately, I felt overwhelmed. I wanted to cry. Then I did cry. For the first time since Boston, I felt an emotional connection to it - like all of the sudden I could take a deep breath - like I could finally relax. Like the whole thing was finally over and the world was moving forward.
I never really dealt with the emotional aspect of being in Boston in April. It wasn't because I was avoiding it, but because it was so surreal. You never think you'll be so close to tragedy. People ask about it all the time and I tell my version of it, but mostly, I have felt numb to the whole thing. I don't know why. Disbelief? Guilt? Survival instincts? The reasoning doesn't matter; I feel relieved! I feel excited! I cannot wait to run in April - and I think I will take my time so I can savor the celebration that is sure to take place.
My birthday is September 10th. The best gift I can give myself is an epic return to Boston in 2014.