Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Boston Marathon Registration Realization

I know that I am not alone when I describe how excited I was to see that Boston 2014 Registration opens on September 9th. When I saw the email, I shouted out loud, "YES!" - and immediately, I felt overwhelmed. I wanted to cry. Then I did cry. For the first time since Boston, I felt an emotional connection to it - like all of the sudden I could take a deep breath - like I could finally relax. Like the whole thing was finally over and the world was moving forward.

I never really dealt with the emotional aspect of being in Boston in April. It wasn't because I was avoiding it, but because it was so surreal. You never think you'll be so close to tragedy. People ask about it all the time and I tell my version of it, but mostly, I have felt numb to the whole thing. I don't know why. Disbelief? Guilt? Survival instincts? The reasoning doesn't matter; I feel relieved! I feel excited! I cannot wait to run in April - and I think I will take my time so I can savor the celebration that is sure to take place.

My birthday is September 10th. The best gift I can give myself is an epic return to Boston in 2014.

BOSTON STRONG.

3 comments:

  1. I saw that registration opened online and thought about all of the people who will be running this year who didn't get to finish last year. It will be an emotional race for everyone. I'm glad that you will be able to return, celebrate, honor, remember and run!
    Karen @karenlovestorun

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  2. Boston will be such an amazing experience in 2014. Glad to hear you are healing and will be running it again. :)

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  3. I love this Michelle. I can only imagine how much emotion goes into this decision and WILL go into the experience. Sending <3!

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